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Saturday, February 03, 2007

"TRY HARDER NEXT TIME" ...HAHAHA.... thats what it says at the bottom of my ippt result slip

waahahhaha1 i dunno whether i'm supposed to cry or to just laugh my head off. I just came back from ippt abt an hour ago and guess what? i didnt noe i could outdo myself the last time i did my ippt. yeah.. i've managed to prove to myself that it is possible to get 4 points for ippt. standing broad jump: 0 points, sit ups: 0 points, chin up: 0 points, 2.4 km run: 0 points ... and shuttle run: 4 POINTS! hahahhah! and i didnt try to do well for the shuttle run la... 0.1 sec off for gettin five points. its really funny that i can sprint really fast even when i'm fat la.... has always been so... bloody weird.

but oh well... i did expect to fail la.. i've been starting to go to gyms about 3 weeks ago... twice a week with nassar... but of cos, that wouldnt have able to prepare me for this ippt la... but i just wanna make it a regular thing ya noe... like i really think its time i shape myself up all over again before i get really morbidly obese. i've lost 2 cm off my tummy... maybe not that significant but hey, that is fine by me... any progress is good progress. i just hope i dont have to go for remedial trainings la... cos there's been rumours that now even tho u're still studying, rt is compulsory if u fail... which will be a bloody hell of a bummer. i have no time to go for remedial trainings la...

oh! and i was in for a lil shock just now when i went to the sports hall to do the static stations! there were all these electronic machines to measure our chin ups, standing broad jump, sit ups and shuttle run! it was awesome la... People dont have to hold ur feet for u for sit ups anymore and the machine counts the number of sit ups for u! hahah... as does the one for chin up... i think that was really cool... very 21st century horrrrrr!

i wanna say that i will make sure i will pass the next ippt next year... but thats what i said last year.. so yeah... well i guess i just have to be consistent at the gym sessions la... it would be really nice to get 200 bucks from passing ippt... this army fren of mine whom i always go for the ippt with, has been getting 400 bucks every year la.. i think for three consecutive years lor.. for getting gold... wah laueyyyy.... 400 bucks k! for like less than 2 hrs of work! anyway.. it was nice tho.. to have gotten this thing over and done with...and it was nice that i got to drive to maju camp.... cos my parents are in perth right now... to visit my uncle... my aunt just passed away last sunday... was really sad news.. but that is part and parcel of life eh...

on a brighter note, my bday is coming up... i am pretty excited.. dunno why... hahha... but yeah.. i;m turning 24... which is surreal.. i dont feel 24... i mean... i used to think that i;d be feeling or wld be a certain way at 24.. and i don;t feel that...i feel like i'm a 15 year ol kid stuck in the body of a fat 24 year ol man! hahahahha! but oh well... age is but a number rite.... anyway... skool.s been pretty okay i guess... altho the even weeks are definitely hell... wednesdays on even weeks are like 6 hrs back to back of tute, lect, tute.... and thursdays and fridays, school starts at 8 for me.... yes hell i tell ya! pure hell! but all's good i guess.

oh i just remebered, i need to let this out la.. i met this secondary school fren of mine... in his on words, he is really "an awkward kid"... has always been and still is la... but he is very blunt also... and he is in my class for 'science, technology and society'... so anyway. i finally got to chat with him for a bit before class last week.. and i got so demoralised la... when i told him i wanted to do honours.. he asked about my cap and i said its not that good la.. but i will probably be able to get a second class uppers upon graduation... when he heard that my cap was like 3.89.. he was like.. 'oh k... thats really not good la.. how do honours like that..." I was so unprepared for that la...then he further interrogated me la... about how i plan my studies in nus rght from the start .. since i knew i was gonna do honours, why i didnt plan properly and all... and i was like.. whoa... this guy is really getting in my face la... then when he found out that i wanted to do honours cos i wana do my masters.. he was like... "whoa!!!! really ah!!' whith that cynical look.. like that are-u-for-real look... then when he found out i wanted to do it overseas and that i hope to do my phd... he was liek totally surprised at that la... like i couldnt do it or soemthing siakkk... mann... that was like so depressing... and i could just holler at him abt how pessimistic he was la... well.. the thing is, he wasnt even really the bitchy or provocative type la... i mean... what he said was prolly true... like he did point out concerns that i;ve actually already had in mind la... like things about "you got money meh to study overseas?".. or "your cap good enough meh to do honours?" .....I was stumped for a moment la... cos suddenly i thought yahlah.. my cap is not that fantastic,.... people who go on to do honours have caps in the range of prolly like 4.5 or something... and yeah.. i;m dead broke.. and so are my parents.. how to go do masters overseas?... but then again... i;m not letting some guy who himself has no clue abt wat to do later on in his life after graduating.. and who seems to have no motivation for anything in life... and who doesnt seem to have friends to tell me what or how i should plan my life... this is my life... my aim is for a second class upper honours... ans from a 3.89, i am confident that i can pull it up to a 4.0 which would be in the same class as someone with a 4.49 anyway.... so why should i be discouraged from doing my honours... and well.. if theres a will theres a way aint it? if i noe i wanna do my masters overseas... i can surely find a way to find money for that.... if i dont get a scholarship.. then i can work first and always pursue that later.... whatever it is, at least i noe i have goals set to be achieved in life... and i;d rather die knowing that i've set aims for myself in life... and whether those dreams are realised or not, is another matter... it beats being aimless in life.. and really, the kind of cynicism that he has about what i;ve planned for myself, just reflects his character quite clearly... i feel sorry for him... for being an unmotivated, aimless and pessimistic soul that he is... my heart goes to you dude!

cravie |09:46