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Friday, February 23, 2007

so its been a while since my last update... and yes fazzie, i really want to updat ebut i just aint got the time! anyway... since my last entry on my birthday, many things have gone on actually. hamsa, amirul, fath and razi took me to newton circus to have dinner.. i had a great time! and it was nice lepaking at the new quiet place amirul and I had stumbled upon one saturday night when we were out just the two of us... roaming streets in singapore that were foreign to us and as we discovered national monuments at midnight, we later on stumbled upon this great spot to just lepakk ah... at a quiet corner... with chairs and tables chained together, but sit-able nonetheless... betol relek one corner one la... and most important of all... got free parking space! hmmm lemme think what else i did............................................................................ i think other than that, it was pretty much skool... i'm determined to really keep up with my readings this semester so that i won;t be so kanchiong when exam comes later in april. so yeah... did a lot of readings.. and gym... although as of today.. i think i;ve missed 3 gym sessions... or four? hahha... but hey, i had good excuses for missing them yeah!

fetched my parents from the airport the sunday after my birthday... and my dear lil fazzie got me a birthday present... which i am totally in love with! she'd asked me a couple of days before what i wanted for my bithday but i just told her to surprise me... and it was a wonderful surprise indeed!

which totally led me to just stare anguishly at this......

i miss surfing so much i can die! everytime i think abt surfing and how i long to go ride the waves, fiza's words will come right back into my head..." ARE YOU SURE YOU DON;T WANT TO SURF SOME MORE? SURF SOME MORE LA...LATER GO BACK SINGAPORE NO MORE CHANCE!".... but i was tired lah that time.. and i just sprained my ankle... yeah.. i surfed even after i sprained my ankle... and my ankles are killing me right to this day.... but yeah... i miss surfing... i wish i could find some time to go cherating this break and check out the surf breaks... that will be totally bombin!

enough Already abt the surfing... the rest of the week after my birthday was quite uneventful... until friday, when i heard that my cousin got badly hurt in a motorcycle accident... he ended up in hospital with a badly broken leg and arm... still in hospital but i guess he;s recuperating well...

on sunday... yes... first day of CNY, i took up a job as a kitchen hand at ulu ulu restaurant in night safari... i was supposed to work there for three days... 2pm to 10 pm... as casual labor because they needed manpower during the holidays... i have had experience in the fnb business and my desperation for extra cash led me to forget how i'd sworn not to ever go into fnb anymore a few years ago when i was working at the restaurant in the zoological gardens ( yes... seems like i have affinities to working at animal residences.. hahahha). ANYWAY...i did drag myself down that sunday afternoon to the night safari... and found bus number 138 packed liek crazy la.... here's the interesting thing... it was packed with our fellow chinese, donned in their red outfits... carrying their lil paper bags with oranges in them.... heading to the zoo... i would never have thought that they have relatives at the zoo la.... hahha... but i guess looking at animals beats visiting the relatives yeah.

so upon meeting chef chong the head chef at ulu ulu restaurant... seriously the name irritates the hell out of me... we were told to change up into these chef uniforms!... white top.. black pants.. with a long black apron, a lil, neck scarf and a white forage cap. felt pretty good i must say.. like as if i;m working for jamie oliver la! hahahahhaha!... but oh dear god... the three days were pretty unbearable... the chefs were mostly aloof and stuck up... and seems like they don;t really like the idea of us casual laborers to be there at all... like they couldn;t find any use with us... which relaly frustrated the hell out of me can... like when i'm assigned to a particular chef... he'll be like giving me this strange look... like as if he doesnt have a clue as to what to do with me... cos well.. afterall, i am not a chef, i am not even a cook... so i'm pretty useless i guess... but hey.. you guys apparently needed help so get me soemthing to do la!... some of the cooks there were pretty nice... and showed me around.. like where to get the stuff.. what to do and so on.. the head chef was generally nice but he can be a real pain sometimes... from abt 5 onwardsi had to look after the buffet... and that sucks... i never liked doing that... doing that for five hours was dambn tiring... but to cut the story short, i survived the three days ... and earned myself 150 bucks. i was so happy to wake up tuesday morning.. cos it was last day of work... but work started off to a bad start cos apparently i left my fone on the bus... i think it dropped out of my pocket which was probably not deep enough. that sucked la... i was thinking,,, wah.. i;m getting 150 bucks only to have to use that money to buy a new phone???.... but wat was really sad was that i lost all my pictures and videos in the phone....i tried to see if amk interchange had my fone... but they dont la.. so i'll just haev to suck it up la eh.

but on a brighter note..i got a new phone... and i didnt pay a single cent for it... haha...

actually any fone will do just fine... and so since this one was 0 dollars... i just grabbed it la... and it turns out to be an awesome phone.. loves it!

so after all that excitement, i had to study for my midterm test which was this afternoon at 2... when i looked at the questions i was like... DIE DIE DIE!... i scriblled my way thru it... i dunno how i did la... but i did have a hard time doing the paper... but all's done... it was too economics la! urban sociology... hopefully i'd do better for the exams.. when it's more sociological i hope!... this is 30 percent.. which is pretty substantial... so i hope i wont do too badly for it.... i have heaps of other things to so la... my transcription of the interview that i did for my race relations module... my reaction papers... and to study for my next midterm test! genes and society... i am lost la for this module... thats wat i get for skipping lectures la... but i have S/U ed it... so the pressure;s not too great i guess.... i relaly hope i can do really well this sem la... i wanna be in the dean;s list... just for once, i want to have my name up on that list!

so i guess that's that for this entry... its the end of the midterm break... of which it was pretty much break-less for me... and next week.. it'll be the endless struggle to meet deadlines and battle my way through the readings and face the toughest examinations yet in NUS. i noe i'll get thru this... i just have to keep my focus. so till my next entry ya'll!

cravie |19:43

Thursday, February 08, 2007

the big 24?

i turn 24 today. no parents around... sad.. but it's alrite cos the number of birthday wishes i got made my day. and it was a good end to my birthday as i had a late dinner with FIZA AND SURESH at swensen's. it was a simple and brief but thoroughly meaningful birthday celebration and i got a new nike t shirt! with a really cute card! thank you u two! spending time with fiza and suresh made me realise how seldom i see them in school this semester!... i dunno.. i mean last time.. even if we dont meet in between classes, i'll prolly see them at the end of the day when they took a ride in my car. this semester no more la.. cos they stay in pgp... and apparently, our timetables totally clash... i hardly get to see the two of them the whole week! taking six modules is really no joke la.. and because i have to do tuition almost every other day after school.. and the gym sessions....sigh... i miss u two la! hahah weird cos i just met these two people! hahahha!

i'm really tired now so i'm gonna get some rest ... tomorrow last day of the week... AWESOME! and anyway... group projects suck big time la.i'm so tired to have to be the one to step it up everytime.

cravie |22:26

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

friends for life

sometimes i forget how much my friends love me. that occasional warm and tight hugs feel really good. reminds you of how much your friends love you and really treasure your friendship. to know that they can't do without you... its a nice feeling. Thank you my dear mateys for being the beautiful souls that you guys are and for knowing me inside out and loving me in spite of my inadequacies and flaws, and for that, i accept and appreciate you guys for who u guys are. those 11 years of friendship has not been just that bu it has developed into a bond between us that is unbreakable till the end of our brief lives. fathiyah, amirul and hamsa! you guys are my rock and i love the three of you so much you have no idea how much.

cravie |00:56

Saturday, February 03, 2007

great ocean road pictures

i promised great ocean road pictures... long over due... but i've got some free time at hand so here goes... maybe next time i'll put up more melbourne fotos and hopefully those from tasmania la... and a picture of me with my surfboard! :))))))

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cravie |19:03

"try harder next time"

"TRY HARDER NEXT TIME" ...HAHAHA.... thats what it says at the bottom of my ippt result slip

waahahhaha1 i dunno whether i'm supposed to cry or to just laugh my head off. I just came back from ippt abt an hour ago and guess what? i didnt noe i could outdo myself the last time i did my ippt. yeah.. i've managed to prove to myself that it is possible to get 4 points for ippt. standing broad jump: 0 points, sit ups: 0 points, chin up: 0 points, 2.4 km run: 0 points ... and shuttle run: 4 POINTS! hahahhah! and i didnt try to do well for the shuttle run la... 0.1 sec off for gettin five points. its really funny that i can sprint really fast even when i'm fat la.... has always been so... bloody weird.

but oh well... i did expect to fail la.. i've been starting to go to gyms about 3 weeks ago... twice a week with nassar... but of cos, that wouldnt have able to prepare me for this ippt la... but i just wanna make it a regular thing ya noe... like i really think its time i shape myself up all over again before i get really morbidly obese. i've lost 2 cm off my tummy... maybe not that significant but hey, that is fine by me... any progress is good progress. i just hope i dont have to go for remedial trainings la... cos there's been rumours that now even tho u're still studying, rt is compulsory if u fail... which will be a bloody hell of a bummer. i have no time to go for remedial trainings la...

oh! and i was in for a lil shock just now when i went to the sports hall to do the static stations! there were all these electronic machines to measure our chin ups, standing broad jump, sit ups and shuttle run! it was awesome la... People dont have to hold ur feet for u for sit ups anymore and the machine counts the number of sit ups for u! hahah... as does the one for chin up... i think that was really cool... very 21st century horrrrrr!

i wanna say that i will make sure i will pass the next ippt next year... but thats what i said last year.. so yeah... well i guess i just have to be consistent at the gym sessions la... it would be really nice to get 200 bucks from passing ippt... this army fren of mine whom i always go for the ippt with, has been getting 400 bucks every year la.. i think for three consecutive years lor.. for getting gold... wah laueyyyy.... 400 bucks k! for like less than 2 hrs of work! anyway.. it was nice tho.. to have gotten this thing over and done with...and it was nice that i got to drive to maju camp.... cos my parents are in perth right now... to visit my uncle... my aunt just passed away last sunday... was really sad news.. but that is part and parcel of life eh...

on a brighter note, my bday is coming up... i am pretty excited.. dunno why... hahha... but yeah.. i;m turning 24... which is surreal.. i dont feel 24... i mean... i used to think that i;d be feeling or wld be a certain way at 24.. and i don;t feel that...i feel like i'm a 15 year ol kid stuck in the body of a fat 24 year ol man! hahahahha! but oh well... age is but a number rite.... anyway... skool.s been pretty okay i guess... altho the even weeks are definitely hell... wednesdays on even weeks are like 6 hrs back to back of tute, lect, tute.... and thursdays and fridays, school starts at 8 for me.... yes hell i tell ya! pure hell! but all's good i guess.

oh i just remebered, i need to let this out la.. i met this secondary school fren of mine... in his on words, he is really "an awkward kid"... has always been and still is la... but he is very blunt also... and he is in my class for 'science, technology and society'... so anyway. i finally got to chat with him for a bit before class last week.. and i got so demoralised la... when i told him i wanted to do honours.. he asked about my cap and i said its not that good la.. but i will probably be able to get a second class uppers upon graduation... when he heard that my cap was like 3.89.. he was like.. 'oh k... thats really not good la.. how do honours like that..." I was so unprepared for that la...then he further interrogated me la... about how i plan my studies in nus rght from the start .. since i knew i was gonna do honours, why i didnt plan properly and all... and i was like.. whoa... this guy is really getting in my face la... then when he found out that i wanted to do honours cos i wana do my masters.. he was like... "whoa!!!! really ah!!' whith that cynical look.. like that are-u-for-real look... then when he found out i wanted to do it overseas and that i hope to do my phd... he was liek totally surprised at that la... like i couldnt do it or soemthing siakkk... mann... that was like so depressing... and i could just holler at him abt how pessimistic he was la... well.. the thing is, he wasnt even really the bitchy or provocative type la... i mean... what he said was prolly true... like he did point out concerns that i;ve actually already had in mind la... like things about "you got money meh to study overseas?".. or "your cap good enough meh to do honours?" .....I was stumped for a moment la... cos suddenly i thought yahlah.. my cap is not that fantastic,.... people who go on to do honours have caps in the range of prolly like 4.5 or something... and yeah.. i;m dead broke.. and so are my parents.. how to go do masters overseas?... but then again... i;m not letting some guy who himself has no clue abt wat to do later on in his life after graduating.. and who seems to have no motivation for anything in life... and who doesnt seem to have friends to tell me what or how i should plan my life... this is my life... my aim is for a second class upper honours... ans from a 3.89, i am confident that i can pull it up to a 4.0 which would be in the same class as someone with a 4.49 anyway.... so why should i be discouraged from doing my honours... and well.. if theres a will theres a way aint it? if i noe i wanna do my masters overseas... i can surely find a way to find money for that.... if i dont get a scholarship.. then i can work first and always pursue that later.... whatever it is, at least i noe i have goals set to be achieved in life... and i;d rather die knowing that i've set aims for myself in life... and whether those dreams are realised or not, is another matter... it beats being aimless in life.. and really, the kind of cynicism that he has about what i;ve planned for myself, just reflects his character quite clearly... i feel sorry for him... for being an unmotivated, aimless and pessimistic soul that he is... my heart goes to you dude!

cravie |09:46